It's been a crazy-busy weekend. I'm still trying to recover from it. But it's a price I pay happily, because it was the best weekend I've had in a very long time. And best of all, I've hardly binged at all since the last posting; whatever was driving me before has either been pushed far back in my psyche, or it was resolved.
At this time, I need to recognize a few people. Shawno, thank you for your encouragement, support, and understanding. I think you may be right about the past year being so intense and stressful. The prices have definitely been high - no question about it. I'm sure you're right that when things settle down, the stress will ease off, too. Here's hoping, right?
Sweet Angel, thank you so very much, my friend. You are never far from my thoughts, either. I want you to know that when your surgery date comes, I'll be there with you in thought and in spirit, doing my best to help you. Always.
Nina, you "get" me so well that it's like you're my brain and you speak directly rather than bothering with the whole process of transmitting through my clumsy fingers or confused and tangled tongue what I'm trying to say. Thank you so much for that, my friend, and thank you so much for being part of my life.
Understanding what my triggers are so that I can find more appropriate ways to deal with them is critical to overcoming, once and for all, this awful eating disorder. On rare occasions, I've been able to identify a trigger, but most of the time, I've just been at a loss. I can't figure out the pattern. I know there's a pattern because I can feel it; the problem is that I can't seem to get a handle on it so that I can examine it and try to fix it.
One day at a time - and sometimes, one minute at a time - is how I currently try to manage my life. For now, that seems to work better than anything else I've tried to do. It's not enough, but for right now, it's all I have; I just don't see any other options.