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Tuesday, October 21st 2014

5:41 PM

Empowerment

Life is starting to become more interesting.  Some changes have been implemented at home, and at least one of them is not being terribly well received by Karis or Paul. I don't understand why, since I did tell her I was going to be doing what I did, and at the time, she seemed to think it was a reasonable and good idea. I've already written about what's going on at the other place, so I'll just leave it at that.

Glimmer and Violet have been doing really well together. Yesterday, they played together for almost 15 minutes. It was awesome. It was especially awesome to see Glimmer actually smiling; she hasn't done that since Charlie joined Rascal...

Having taken action on some of the things on my project list has made me start to feel better emotionally and mentally; getting the fridge cleaned, organized, and labeled really helped. I feel like I have a little more control over my life, now; I didn't realize just how powerless I'd been feeling until I put the last label on the last shelf. I'm sure this will continue to gain strength as I achieve each goal I've set for myself. Karis and Paul aren't too pleased with us, of course, but honestly, I'm not doing anything unfair or unreasonable, so they really don't have any room for complaint. They don't feel that way about it, but oh, well.

Anyway, I just wanted to pop in, say hello, and basically let people know I'm still alive. Thanks for reading...
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Thursday, October 16th 2014

7:01 AM

Violet

It's been two nights and one full day since the kitten joined us. Yesterday, she had her first visit to the vet. Because of the mystery surrounding her appearance on our friend's farm, she was given one of two de-worming treatments. She was also sexed [to verify what we already know], weighed, and given a complete health check-up. She weighed in at a respectable 3/4 of a pound.  Aside from a bit of bloat and an odd wound on one of her back feet, Violet is doing very well. The vet is very happy with her overall health and has no concerns.

 

 

 

There are so many different emotions running through me about this kitten that I don't know how to express them. I wish she would reach out to Roger instead of persisting in coming to me for love I just can't give her and touch I can hardly bear. But, Roger and Glimmer are happy with her, and since that's what really matters, I just internalize it and deal with the situation as best I can.

She is making that incredibly difficult. She forces herself on me, refusing to accept every effort on my part to ignore her.  The second I touch her even slightly, she starts purring so loud it's like listening to a motor running right inside my ear. To add insult to injury, when I have to hold her, she looks up at me with a complete trust and unconditional love shining out of her deep blue eyes that even I cannot deny, and I feel myself falling into them in a way I only ever experienced with Charlie. Well, I can't handle that. I'm not emotionally capable of giving back to her even a fraction of what she is offering to me, and yet, she still persists at trying to get under my skin and make me love her. Why won't she just give all that to Roger and Glimmer, instead, and let me be? I don't want to fall in love with her...
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Sunday, October 12th 2014

4:35 PM

Thank you, Bravenet!

The email notifier appears to be working again.  This is the best news I've had all day.  Thank you so much, Doug.

EDIT: I'm still not receiving new-post notices from blogs I'm subscribed to. Hopefully, this is being worked on and will soon be resolved.
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