It's cold. It's very gray. It's snowing - again. The snow started last night, and as the temperature continued to drop, it turned into a sleet-like mix that nearly froze everything. Had the temperature been even a few degrees colder, it would have. This morning, it seems time has stopped, leaving us in a state of suspended animation. It's eerie, to say the least.
This morning, I find myself wondering if there is wisdom in sharing my thoughts here. I do find it much easier to express myself through writing, but at the same time, I still feel like I need to censor myself, sometimes. What is okay to write about? What is not okay to write about? When I write about life from perspective and people get upset, are they upset with me because I spoke a truth they didn't want to acknowledge? Or are they upset with me because I wrote out my thoughts on a public blog? Isn't life about the good, the bad, the ugly, and the indifferent? And shouldn't a journal be a mixture of all those things? I do understand that I have to be responsible about what I choose to share - because this is a public blog. But where is the line? Is there a line? Why is it okay to write about some things, but it's not okay to write about other things?
People sometimes hurt us, and we sometimes hurt other people. Is it okay to write about those experiences? Or are those experiences supposed to be kept to oneself? People sometimes make us angry, and we sometimes make other people angry. Is it okay to write about those experiences? How much of one's life is it acceptable to share?
Personally, I think that when my life is really challenging, it's never going to matter how much or how little I write about it here. Because, as surely as I know my name, someone, somewhere, for some reason or other, will get pissed off with me. But the way I see it is that if other people can make their perspectives about those situations public, then so can I. Not to come off as a victim or to gain sympathy - neither of which I want or need - but to try to understand whatever it was that happened, to try to see the situation from their perspective, and hopefully, to learn from whatever mistake or mistakes I personally made that caused that situation to happen in the first place.
My, my. Such deep thoughts today...
Tomorrow night is the Alumni party. Glimmer is taking a nap right now - she's a bit cranky this morning - but when she wakes up and she's ready for it, I'm going to be spending some time working her on the skills she'll be showcasing. I'm a bit nervous about this event; we've never been asked to do this before, and I confess I'm a bit uncertain about how Glimmer will handle the situation. Will she be able to stay focused on the tasks I'm asking of her, or will she get distracted by all the other humans and their dogs? So, I'm going to work her today just to make sure she's got a firm grasp of the challenges she'll be given. She's done really well around other dogs so far, so I have to trust that she'll do just fine tomorrow night, too - after she's had a chance to meet them and she's settled down a bit.
Well, I think that's it for me for now. I hope everyone has a great day - and, as always, I thank you for visiting my little corner of the world.